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Dec. 8th, 2003
In which Karine has a nervous breakdown...
Dec. 8th, 2003 04:44 pmHappy Birthday Dommie! Yeah, have a good one, at least, that'll make one of us who's having a good day.
I am in a shitty mood, today, and I don't know if I want to talk about it. I feel like crap because I am completely unable to tell a guy how I feel, now, how fucking stupid is that? I am completely unable to say anything. He even tried to make me say what was on my mind, last night, but, as I can't fucking tell a guy I like him, and I was near tears from it anyway, I didn't want to speak. I hate myself so much, I can't even elaborate on the subject. He could tell I was in pain though, and he could read me so fucking well, it was actually scary. I think he knows, but I'm not going to ask him out, because I just fucking can't!
I hated being put on the spot so much I felt like throwing up. And I've been grounding and centering all day, or else I would've broken down already. I'm just a fucking wreck...
I am in a shitty mood, today, and I don't know if I want to talk about it. I feel like crap because I am completely unable to tell a guy how I feel, now, how fucking stupid is that? I am completely unable to say anything. He even tried to make me say what was on my mind, last night, but, as I can't fucking tell a guy I like him, and I was near tears from it anyway, I didn't want to speak. I hate myself so much, I can't even elaborate on the subject. He could tell I was in pain though, and he could read me so fucking well, it was actually scary. I think he knows, but I'm not going to ask him out, because I just fucking can't!
I hated being put on the spot so much I felt like throwing up. And I've been grounding and centering all day, or else I would've broken down already. I'm just a fucking wreck...
I just want to leave...
Dec. 8th, 2003 05:57 pm...go home and curl up into bed and cry. And I can't wait to be able to do so.
People seem to think it's easy, it's not that fucking easy to tell your feelings to someone. I can't even share anything that makes me feel something else than happy or angry with any of my friends... heck, I can't even do that with my own Mother. So how the fuck am I supposed to tell someone I have feelings for them?
Fuck I sound like an overly angsty Domlijah...
People seem to think it's easy, it's not that fucking easy to tell your feelings to someone. I can't even share anything that makes me feel something else than happy or angry with any of my friends... heck, I can't even do that with my own Mother. So how the fuck am I supposed to tell someone I have feelings for them?
Fuck I sound like an overly angsty Domlijah...