I just want to leave...

[serendipity8791]

...go home and curl up into bed and cry. And I can't wait to be able to do so.

People seem to think it's easy, it's not that fucking easy to tell your feelings to someone. I can't even share anything that makes me feel something else than happy or angry with any of my friends... heck, I can't even do that with my own Mother. So how the fuck am I supposed to tell someone I have feelings for them?

Fuck I sound like an overly angsty Domlijah...

Comments

[elanthis.livejournal.com]

Awww, don't cry, dear!
I don't think it's easy to tell someone your feelings, especially not face-to-face.
But is it easier and better to keep them secret (or at least unsaid)? How much do you want him to know? How does he feel about all that? Maybe it helps a little if you try to answer these questions to yourself...? (But I guess you've asked them yourself already...)

[serendipity8791.livejournal.com]

I don't know HOW to tell someone I'm interested in them. I've never done it, and I know I will end up sounding like an idiot. Or worse, like a 12-year-old, as I have about as much experience in dating as one (as in, I never had a relationship, and I'm 25).

I want him to know, but I know that I'll sound so stupid I'll kill my own chances. It's just a good thing that he's an amazing guy. He really is. I just don't know if I'm worth his time.

How does he feel about what? I think he might know something, but he won't let on much. And he rubbed my back yesterday, as I was fighting back tears. I just felt so ridiculous and inadequate. Like someone like him would want to spend that kind of time with me. Yeah, right...

[elanthis.livejournal.com]

I understand that you feel akward about expressing your feelings. It always sounds strange to put one's feelings in words. No matter, how often you do it. Maybe it's easier to write things down? Maybe he feels just as akward?

I just don't know if I'm worth his time.
I just felt so ridiculous and inadequate. Like someone like him would want to spend that kind of time with me. Yeah, right...
I understand that you feel this way, but sentences like these are a big no-no!!!There is absolutely no reason why you shouldn't be worth anybody's time (no matter how great a guy might be!). Don't make your self-esteem depend on others!

I know it's easy to talk like me when you're not in this situation. But I've felt like you before... (The guy never got to know I care, so I'm not really the one to give advice, sigh!)

[serendipity8791.livejournal.com]

Writing things down are a big no-no when you're 25 and the guy is 34. Seriously.

[elanthis.livejournal.com]

:) Writing them down just for yourself might still help. If you write something down, you have to formulate it, put it into words. If you've done it once, the second time might be easier...

[serendipity8791.livejournal.com]

I'm terrified of rejection.

[elanthis.livejournal.com]

I know. That's always the trouble with those things. It'd be so easy without that. Just like in all those romantic movies... Sigh!
Maybe you just try to take a little more time, see how it all goes. Maybe there will be a point of time coming all of it's own when you feel more at ease about it. (Hm, that didn't sound very convincing, did it?)