serendipity8791 | In which Karine has a nervous breakdown...

Happy Birthday Dommie! Yeah, have a good one, at least, that'll make one of us who's having a good day.

I am in a shitty mood, today, and I don't know if I want to talk about it. I feel like crap because I am completely unable to tell a guy how I feel, now, how fucking stupid is that? I am completely unable to say anything. He even tried to make me say what was on my mind, last night, but, as I can't fucking tell a guy I like him, and I was near tears from it anyway, I didn't want to speak. I hate myself so much, I can't even elaborate on the subject. He could tell I was in pain though, and he could read me so fucking well, it was actually scary. I think he knows, but I'm not going to ask him out, because I just fucking can't!

I hated being put on the spot so much I felt like throwing up. And I've been grounding and centering all day, or else I would've broken down already. I'm just a fucking wreck...